Another wild and crazy night!

My first nightmare occurred around 2 a.m. Of all things to be concerned about, I wouldn't think cookie making would've made the list! My plan was to make half a batch, and I was measuring from memory. I thought I had gotten the butter/shortening measurement wrong from the get-go and tried to correct it. The next thing I knew in my dream, I was yelling at Granny because she started throwing away the dough instead of adding the egg I told her to add. At this point, I couldn’t take over because I was flat on my back on the floor (all part of the dream--not really there although it wouldn't have been surprising considering my propensity to walk in my sleep). I couldn’t reach the hands of the African American who was trying to help me up. My ex son-in-law made an appearance by walking in right then, but he was just cutting through to use the bathroom and didn’t notice me. Steve finally rescued me with his real-life appearance as I was yelling and flailing my arms. 

So I went back to sleep although the incorrect measurements continued to bother me. At 5, I woke myself up shouting “Steve, Steve!” The disturbance was that I was trying to fend off ghosts! There was one next to my bed and a ghostly presence throughout the room with tiny pinpoints of pastel blue lights. What was really weird was that my phone lit up brightly right then and woke me up. There were no notifications, but I thought I heard Steve calling me, asking, “Uh huh?”

I need to talk to Chris (Northern Exposure). He'd have a philosophical explanation for this.

My poor, little sick self

Surprisingly, with all my past health issues, I rarely get sick. Except for the TIA and diverticulitis in 2021 and a very minor one-day cold at the beginning of Covid, I just haven't been sick since the winter of 2018!

But I had a restless night and woke up with a scratchy throat, and I remember just how un-fun that is. My nightmares undoubtedly were the result of my impending illness. In one I dreamt that it was January 8, and I forgot that I was supposed to be teaching. I panicked and went to school, but my classroom had been gutted and no students were present. It was the school's (not) subtle way of telling me I was no longer needed. Rude!

In an effort to keep myself from walking in my sleep last night, I put a pillow on each side of me. But the tossing and turning resulting from being sick really wasn't conducive to a comfortable night's sleep anyway. I really wasn't asleep long enough to see if my experiment worked. 

But that's okay because I needed to get up early anyway. We planned to go to Table Rock for a hike and picnic with the, and I had promised to bring chocolate chip cookies. So what was I doing at 6 a.m.? Mixing cookies in the garage so as not to wake Steve. I learned my lesson years ago when my husband was going through a patch of not sleeping well. He had heard the bell on the microwave, and he was not a happy camper. In fact, I ended up buying a microwave for the garage! I rarely used it, but it gave me great satisfaction to know I could. 

So, anyway, I took my homemade cookies and trekked on part of a trail before turning around to take refuge in our car with a book. A perfect example of making lemonade out of lemons. Come to think of it, lemonade would've gone well with chocolate chip cookies.

This is getting to be a regular thing!

Nothing too new and exciting to post, but I walked in my sleep yet again. I don't remember the accompanying dream, but, once again, I had what I call the wobbles--that's when my dream legs are extremely wobbly--and I told myself to sit before I hurt myself. That's when I woke up. Sitting in a nearby chair.

Maybe I'm onto something; a stern talking-to yields results!

These girls know how to have fun

Yesterday, I took my 8-year-old granddaughter Bella clothes shopping. I told my daughter a few days earlier that I was planning to do just that, so she told her daughter. When Bella heard, she got so excited, saying, "This is what big girls do!" 

So while Papa was taking care of Bryan, Bella and I shopped. I thought it was going to take very little time, but we ended up going to Kohls where we found a skirt for her. And then we went next door where we looked through an endless supply of clothes at Once Upon a Child. She'd say things like, "Don't even touch these; they're ugly!" But occasionally I'd find something that I thought she'd like--she did--and she'd find something that I might--or might not--like. Fortunately, we agreed on a great many! I probably wouldn't have chosen a few of them, but that's okay. They excited her, and that was enough for me. 

So for $50 at the used clothing store, she was able to get two dresses (one of them fancy), a top and skirt combo, two bathing suits, a tee, a winter skirt, and a crop top and another top that went well with the skirt from Kohls.

Keeping up with Bella's growth is a bit challenging. With a dad that's 6' 6", she's following in his footsteps. In the 2nd grade, she's one of the tallest in her class. That's completely foreign to me because I was always one of the shrimpiest. Still am.

But size doesn't matter nearly as much as character. She's so kind that she asked if we could buy her little brother something, too. And after it was all over, she remained excited, pleased, and amazed that we shopped for such a long period of time (about an hour and a half). 

And walking into the store holding hands was the frosting on the cake for me.

Here I Go Again!

These night-time meanderings are getting a bit much.

Last night I dreamt I was working at the OSU Human Performance Center (which I did back in 1981-83). Dr. Shulman and Dr. Jagacinski made an appearance although the latter looked like Brockman in LA Law (which I've been streaming for a few weeks).

I was napping on one of the two twin beds in the office--no such thing--and Jagacinski came in to change his clothes to go to the gym. I woke up slightly, but he apologized and left pretty quickly. I told him to turn on the light on the way out, but he didn't do that. Since I knew it was time for me to get up and start moving, I got out of bed. I dreamt my legs were really wobbly and that there was a (nonexistent) rocking chair in the way before I reached the wall with the (nonexistent) light switch. I extended my arm to switch it off, but I fell short of the wall. 

And by that I do mean fell. I woke up when the right side of my face hit the floor with a bam! I didn't scream; I just picked myself up and went back to bed.

I don't understand why I'm not bruised this morning nor do I understand why I've picked up this habit again after not sleepwalking for decades.  Any ideas? Or any ideas how to prevent a major bone breakage?

Life is nothing if not interesting.

My health chronical in a (big) nutshell

 

Some of you have read much of this before—in piecemeal. I can’t really say why I’m inspired to pull it altogether at this point, but here goes one hot mess of a health chronicle.

My BP issues started more than twenty years ago when I asked my doctor about my higher than usual BP readings. She prescribed medication rather than exploring the reasons behind the hike. It would’ve made sense for us to wait; after all, I weighed 98 lbs., exercised regularly, and ate reasonably well. In retrospect, it was no wonder that my BP was up: my mom had recently died, my daughter was heading off to college leaving us with an empty nest, and I was experiencing problems requiring a decision about a hysterectomy. At any rate, she prescribed the first of many different BP meds. After a couple of years and several false starts with at least three visits to the ER and the appearance of a symptomatic mitral valve prolapse, my BP settled into a pretty normal pattern.

Jump to fall 2015. My daughter called me one day and told me that she was having trouble sleeping. No surprise there since she was pregnant. I remember this phone call clearly because I was also having trouble sleeping—which continued for the next eight years.

In February 2016, really odd aches and pains moved in; they’d disappear around midnight but return every single evening at 6. The pain affected my joints, my bones, my muscles, my nerves—a different area each night. Blood tests revealed an elevated TSH and ANA, the latter of which had to do with a possible autoimmune disorder. (Upon another blood test, that proved to be incorrect.) At any rate, I saw my internist and was subsequently sent to a rheumatologist and a neurologist. When my eyeball started twitching 10 days in a row, it just about drove me nuts. I asked my cardiologist if it could be caused by my BP medicine; after being on Losartan for 4-5 years, it had stopped working well anyway. He prescribed something else. Relief! I thought that was the end of it because, sure enough, the pains stopped. But the trouble was that the replacement BP med didn’t work. Neither did the next, or the next, or the next. (My BP once read as high as 210/100, and 180/90 was fairly commonplace!) My internist tried me on something, as did my cardiologist (who told me I was high maintenance), as did the Vanderbilt hypertension specialist (who told me there was nothing else she could do for me), as did my nephrologist (who fired me from his practice for being difficult). My BP remained uncontrolled despite being on medicine, bringing with it a very real threat of stroke.

Each time I went to a different doctor, I reminded him or her that my TSH was high (six out of eight blood tests proved this point). They all said, “No need for drugs if your T3 and T4 are normal.” After calling a friend out of the blue—I hadn’t talked to her for a couple of years—she told me of her own health predicament: her bladder and a kidney had to be removed when cancer was detected. When I shared my tale of woe—definitely minor compared to hers—she insisted I see both a nephrologist and an endocrinologist. I asked my cardiologist to refer me to a nephrologist. An initial ultrasound of the kidneys showed blockage, but a follow-up CT scan revealed that the blockage was minor and, in fact, existed in only one of the two arteries leading to the left kidney. (That in itself is unique; most people have only one.) I kept stressing there had to be an underlying problem; after all, even though I had had a rocky start with BP meds, I had been on an even keel for quite a while.

At the time, my docs refused to think outside the box. All they saw was a woman who didn’t fit the mold of an ill patient. As a result, I got the distinct impression that 1) they hated to see me coming, and 2) they thought I was a hypochondriac.

A new family doctor finally took a deeper look at the thyroid situation by testing my antibodies. She found the number ridiculously high: 836 when it should’ve been less than 9. She put me on a thyroid med on the same day the nephrologist started me on a diuretic, Spironolactone. It took about 5 weeks for the old medicine to leave my body and the new medicines to work out all the possible side effects. My BP started showing up as 125/75 or less. Unfortunately, those readings didn’t last.

 I wasn’t convinced that the very small dosage of Levothyroxine was adequate; I was still exhausted, still freezing all the time—one time at the doctor’s office, my finger was so “frozen” that the oximeter would simply not register a reading—and I remained unable to get a decent night’s sleep. Of course, the fact that I was losing weight should have been addressed, athough my docs chose to ignore it, thinking that a few pounds didn’t merit concern. (Did they not see me when they looked at me? By the time, I bottomed out, I was down to 90 lbs.) Anyway, my nephrologist suggested I follow up with an endocrinologist, and remembering my friend’s advice, I went to the family doc for a referral. Things really started popping then. He found a very small goiter when I swallowed—other doctors had examined my neck, only to find nothing—and scheduled me for an ultrasound the Friday before Christmas 2017. I got the results within an hour. A diagnosis wouldn’t be forthcoming until I underwent a fine needle biopsy, which I scheduled for two weeks later.

In the meantime, we went on our planned vacation. I read a lot but spent very little time with the family because I wasn’t feeling well. When I returned home, I found out I had an ear infection, strep throat, and sinusitis and went on a Z-pack. I underwent the fine needle biopsy as planned. The following day, the doctor called me with the news that I had thyroid cancer.

I conferred with a surgeon. Dr. Teachy diagnosed me with Stage 1 papillary cancer. There was also lymph involvement, shown via ultrasound by enlarged lymph nodes, but even with that, the prognosis was still excellent. In his opinion, it would be necessary for me to undergo a radioactive iodine treatment after the thyroid was removed. Dr. Teachy not only explained the entire procedure and expected outcome in detail but, as an ENT specialist, studied my nasal/sinus situation. (I got a twofer!) The previous bacterial infection had resolved; instead, I had a viral infection and needed to take more antibiotics.

So another week went by with me first on Augmentin and then on Bactrim. I attributed my slight nausea and discomfort to the antibiotics, so I ignored the worsening symptoms and packed for the long-anticipated trip to Greenville. My son and I got in the car on Friday morning. Within ten minutes, I told him to turn around as I had started throwing up and couldn’t stop. Fortunately, we hadn’t gotten far from home. I showered, retching all the while, and crawled into bed hoping to get things under control. I couldn’t. I called my husband  at work; he came home and together with my son drove me the mile and a half to Madison Hospital’s ER.

Have you ever been to the ER, wondering both before and after whether it was the right thing to do? I’ve been in that situation. This wasn’t it.

I was seen within 30 minutes. The first step to figuring out my problem was to hook me to an IV and put me on Zofran to prevent further nausea. (All told, I vomited for three hours.) I wasn’t hopeful about its powers because I’d been given similar drugs before without success; fortunately, the anti-nausea drugs had improved through the years, and I saw almost immediate results. Lab work revealed I had hyponatremia (low sodium), and I was told that I could’ve died had it been any lower. The lab work also showed that I had another bacterial infection. At this point, it meant that I had suffered through five weeks of bacterial, then, viral, then bacterial infections. I was put on an IV antibiotic, Rosephin, which seemed to work miracles.

While I was seen and treated effectively from the get-go, it did take a while to get me to the Med/Surg floor. Everyone was kind, though, and the six hours went by without me getting too terribly impatient. Of course, My husband stayed by my side, with my son spelling him occasionally.

The doctors felt the need to keep me until my sodium reached a more respectable level, and that was done via a saline drip. (I was there two nights.) Unfortunately, my left arm was continually occupied by the IV, so that left my right arm subject to blood draws—and blood draws, they did. Can you imagine being roused at midnight to give blood yet again after having it done six hours earlier, and knowing it would be done six hours later? They drew my blood seven times over the course of two days.

Getting back to my BP medication, I had been on the diuretic Spironolactone. While the nephrologist insisted I had been drinking too much water and that’s what caused the low sodium, my research showed that the drug itself could actually cause low sodium. (In other words, my doctor should’ve been testing my blood to make sure everything was as it should be.) In addition to the opinion that I was drinking too much water, other doctors thought it could be attributed to the ongoing, unrelenting infection for the previous five weeks and the continued use of an antibiotic. 

At any rate, my nephrologist stopped Spironolactone and put me on Clonidine, which presented its own set of problems. While it brought down my BP, the drug made me feel shaky and anxious. I suggested something else that had worked previously, and that’s when he fired me.

I underwent the thyroidectomy as scheduled on February 15, 2018. The doctor chose not to remove any lymph nodes after all, and the biopsy didn’t reveal any additional cancer. I struggled with swallowing from the beginning; yet, I had to take 3 calcium pills 3 times a day for 7 days. Apparently, the parathyroids typically get out of whack in a surgery like this, and they cause havoc with the calcium level. Overall, the procedure and recovery had gone well. I stayed doped up the first day due to both the anti-nausea and pain meds, but I didn’t bother filling the pain prescription med when I left the hospital (after spending a night there—and thanks to my dear husband for spending it with me). I took Tylenol for a couple of days and then abandoned that as well. If I hadn’t had ongoing BP problems and the fact that I broke a tooth the day after surgery due to the insertion of the breathing tube, I’d have said I was doing very well. I had hoped that my BP would “heal” along with my surgery site, but that didn’t prove to be the case.

I thought the bad news about my thyroid was behind me, but in early June, I had to undergo another surgery. My neck looked like a thin man’s with a prominent Adam’s apple. The bulge was caused by a mass in my neck resulting from hypertrophied (enlarged), errant thyroid tissue. The surgeon told me it wouldn't have happened if I had taken the radioactive iodine pill. (If only I had known! But the oncologist said that since the thyroid cancer was Stage 1, small, and contained, guidelines stated the pill was unnecessary.) The procedure was a quick, outpatient operation with no additional cancer shown. (Unfortunately, my scar from the second operation never resolved to my satisfaction.) I was fine after the general anesthesia, but the pain med didn’t do me any favors with 24 hours of nausea probably due to the usual overprescribing for my tiny body. 

Even though these two operations happened in 2018, I’m still undergoing ultrasounds every 6 months to a year. My current endocrinologist would rather be safe than sorry. I underwent an additional fine biopsy at the beginning because a lymph node looked suspicious—and every time I undergo another ultrasound, the same lymph node is flagged. Fine needle biopsies are no picnic, so I hope I don’t have to experience yet another one. 

In February 2020, I got a new internist and when my BP registered 193/73 during my first visit, she prescribed an additional BP medication, Hydralazine. Although it’s pretty commonplace for a hypertensive patient to be prescribed two meds, it was the first time it had happened to me. The additional pill helped immediately but not to the extent we had hoped it would.

Covid overtook the country shortly after, but it didn’t overtake me. I came in close contact with it, though, when I had diverticulitis in January 2022. In the middle of the night, I vomited numerous times and suffered from intense left quadrant abdominal oain. Of course, I should’ve gone to the ER immediately, but who is anxious to go to the ER in the middle of the night, especially when we know our hospital was dealing with Covid? At any rate, Steve took me to the ER the next day after visiting an urgent care facility. He couldn’t be with me in the facility nor in the ER. Due to a lack of health care professionals, I had to walk myself to the ER examination room. When I slowly walked down the hall, I passed a woman who had seven IV bags hanging over her stretcher as she was moved down the hall. Furthermore, I was ultimately taken to the ortho floor because the hospital was crowded with Covid patients, and that was the only room that was available. (Other close calls with Covid: my husband got it in 2023 and 2024 despite being vaccinated.)

Although the healthcare workers were very nice, they were obviously overworked. No one changed my sheets. No one asked if they could help me take a shower, or even comb my hair—which was definitely a rat’s nest by the third day. Due to my pain, it hadn’t even occurred to me to ask my husband to help me. My gown was made for a 300 pound person, so perhaps all the smaller ones were being put to use. 

The pain continued, and I wasn’t allowed to eat for two days. On the third day, I was allowed liquids—hospital liquids and non-brand jello are the worst ever! To make a long story short, I had to stay four nights until the pain disappeared and the surgeon convinced himself I didn’t need an immediate operation. (I had gotten down to 92 lbs.) 

It wasn’t until the final morning that the pain completely went away. And follow-up visits, colonoscopy, and scans showed that my colon is so riddled with diverticulum that I’d better hope I never experience diverticulitis again. Since there’s no cure for easing diverticula and no magic diet, the surgeon warned that I’d better be prepared for a surgery down the road—a surgery that wouldn’t result in a mere twelve inches (the sigmoid colon) excised but the removal of the entire colon. 

As if that wasn’t scary enough, I experienced a TIA in April 2020. (TIA, similar to a stroke, is short for transient ischemic attack that occurs when the blood supply to part of the brain is briefly interrupted.) My experience started with one of my hands going to sleep. Then, the middle part of my vision was blocked. The other hand went to sleep. I told my husband, and we didn’t know what to do. Stupidly, we went for a walk, and my symptoms only got worse. He was trying to tell me something, and I just couldn’t understand that the words had any meaning. When we got home, I burst into tears because I couldn’t find the words to tell him what I was experiencing. After talking to my daughter, a nurse, my husband took me to the ER, and I stayed for an overnight visit while the doctors ran all sorts of tests. By this time, my symptoms had resolved, and, of course, they impressed upon me the need to call an ambulance if this should ever happen again. I came out of it unscathed but was put on three weeks of a blood thinner and was started on 80 mg Lipitor. I continue to take the Lipitor (with no problems) and take a baby aspirin every day. 

I haven’t had any major problems for almost two years, and in fact I’m feeling great. I walk a lot—how much depends on the weather, but often 3-6 miles. My BP is reasonably and consistently low after the addition of a third medicine.

My only ongoing oddity—I don’t know that I’d label it a health issue—is that I often talk in my sleep, and I haven’t done that to this extent for years. I also walked in my sleep, which can be scary but interesting. My main concern is that I not trip and break something.

The upshot of this is that you know your body better than any doctor; if you feel something is wrong, it probably is. Persist until you get answers! And if something unusual happens, please get yourself to the closest ER (probably via ambulance).

Having a Bit of a Walkabout!

 

Another entertaining dream with a twist. Or was it twisted?!

These details aren’t as clear as those of some of my dreams, but I do know it took place in a cemetery and I was staggering, trying to loop my arm through that of someone nearby to help me. The trouble was that he was invisible, and my arm kept going through his body. I pretty much reached the end of my rope, so to speak, when the back of my right hand hit one wall, and the front of my left hand hit an adjacent wall. I had truly walked into a corner! I wasn’t quite awake yet, so as I “looked” down the wall, it appeared to be very long with two doors. I woke up at that point to see that I had walked myself into a corner: I was indeed looking at the entry door and the bathroom door. My right hand only stung a little.

This had a better outcome than when I last walked in my sleep two years ago. I had basically run in my sleep, hitting a closed bathroom door head-on; in other words, I “stubbed” my head into my shoulders! My head and shoulders hurt for several days. And I scared the dickens out of both Steve and myself because I screamed. I screamed loudly. He was still awake and when he came running, he found me dazed on my hands and knees.

It's never a dull moment here because I do seem to talk, walk, sing, scream, and laugh--perhaps more in my sleep than I do when I’m awake.

Analyze this!

 

Hello! Long time no see!

Another crazy night passed me by with another crazy dream. I dream often, and I remember some. Unfortunately, I mostly have nightmares, but this particular dream was very entertaining.

It started with me trying to take a multiple choice test set up like a survey. You know how surveys are often set up as something like this: “Strongly dislike, dislike, don’t care either way, like, or strongly like?” Well, my multiple test answers were: “will, who, and should.” For instance, a sentence was presented: “So and so needs dental work. Will or should he get it?” Of course, the sensible answer would be both will and should. And I imagine I even knew the who! But the directions clearly stated that only one answer was allowed. So I was truly befuddled after answering three questions and left the classroom.

I went to the kitchen where I proceeded to sort the flatware because there was a whole bunch of it in a pile. Despite knowing that the person in charge of the flatware wouldn’t like my interference, I did it anyway. There was a very wide tray that would accommodate all the flatware, so I sorted that way. But then I sorted the plasticware as well. I thought I was just going to be able to put all the plasticware in one Ziploc bag, but it did indeed require three separate bags for forks, knives, and spoons. When I was satisfied with a job well done, I returned to the classroom (and I do believe the teacher was my English teacher from middle school/high school, Mrs. Claphan, who taught us every other year—she was pregnant in the off years).

I tried to explain my confusion to her, but she didn’t really understand; however, she let me retake the test. She couldn’t find a spot for me in the hallway, so she set it up to project on the ceiling while I lay down on the floor. The test was difficult to read because the ceiling was too far away, and I was getting frustrated all over again. But my problems were solved when I realized she was going over the test with the other students!

I woke up a happy student!